Tag: Awakening

  • Dark night of the soul

    Dark night of the soul

    It started on December 12th 2019. The full moon following my third eye-opening.

    I had just came back home from Tunisia, still landing back on earth from the trip and the heavenly energy I had been soaked in the past weeks.

    I recall strange things started happening upon my arrival. Minor inconveniences that seemed unrelated, but the frequency at which they took place was out of norm. It felt that somehow, a dark energy has installed upon my life.

    That night, before I went to sleep, my throat was suddenly feeling sore.

    Around 3 AM, I woke up with the highest fever I had ever experienced. In my ignorance, I tried to numb it with medicine, yet nothing would bring it down.

    I was in terrible pain and was purging in every possible way simultaneously. As I stood to go to the bathroom, my body could not hold, and I completely crumbled to the floor. It felt like all my bodily functions ran into error. I had never experienced such a complete shutdown.

    I was terrified. The only thing that calmed me down and allowed me to have some occasional sleep, was the presence of my spirit guide. They were constantly there, reassuring me that nothing was wrong. They would say that this was the result of the tremendous new flow of energy that my body was not used to. My mind did not fathom those words, but my heart could find moments of peace and rest when bathed in the blissful presence of that being. Trust! they said.

    Two long days and nights of fever had slowly passed, and the familiar symptoms were fading away to give place to new, peculiar ones. On the third day, was the start of the strangest of them all. As I was laying in my bed, I started feeling intense electricity current shooting, burning and crawling all over my body.

    My concern reached a point where I could no longer remain indifferent. My guide’s attempts to reassure me were surpassed by the distress of my mind. I shut down from my guide and refused pay them attention. A neurological disease was enough, I was not in the mood for a psychosis.

    I decided it was time to pay a doctor visit.

    Once at her office, the GP inspected my state looking for traces of bacterial infection. She could not find any, even thought the symptoms of the first days would suggest one.

    As for the other symptoms, she said they were strange and could be due to many things. Vitamin D or B12 deficiency, Diabetes. She took a blood sample to test for them.

    The tests results did not show anything abnormal. Out of answers, my doctor suggested to wait and observe the evolution of the symptoms.

    It was not necessarily the pain that bothered me. It was the fact that I did not know what it was. The feelings were extremely uncomfortable, but the true hell was going through thousands of articles every hour looking up what it could be. Reading all the papers about neurological disorders, All the potential ways in which my body could be degenerating was eating me up.

    The sensations were constantly present in my body and the thoughts of what they could be haunting in my mind.

    The symptoms developed further. My mind started feeling slow and foggy, Vertigo, vision blurriness, problems with my gait and even bladder issues. All the signs of a nervous system breakdown.

    Concurrently, other strange Occurrences were taking place in my life. My psychic abilities were developing. I no longer meditated the way I used to. As soon as I sit down to meditate, I would astral project out of my body and into different realms that my guide would escort me to. I started having visits from foreign beings. Receiving callings to visit a certain mountain. Being reassured by all of them, that what was happening to my body was part of the process.

    When 7 months passed, my doctor got worried. After some visits to otolaryngologist and regular tests that failed to show any cause, she decided that my age, the number of neurological symptoms and their relapsing natures, could indicate Multiple Sclerosis. She prescribed an MRI.

    My guide said ‘If it would ease your mind and reinforce your trust, do all the medical checks. But trust, that you are good. The symptoms will disappear as soon as you heal the traumas causing the energy to flow’

    Two months before my MRI exam, I started following their recommendation for healing the trauma. It was a strict lifestyle change: No trace of pesticide in my food, daily meditation and yoga, intense breathwork, and working on my relationship with my mother.

    When the MRI showed absolutely no lesions or nothing abnormal, the doctors and neurologist told me they had no explanation for what I was going through. It was only at that point that both my head and heart could believe what my spirit guide has been trying to tell me for 7 months. Your body is just adjusting to the new flow of energy.

    Complete list of symptoms:


    Synchronicity with the moon cycles;

    Crown opening: A feeling of oneness with all there is that lasted for days;
    Feeling a deep love towards all existence;
    Transcendental experiences;
    Meeting spirit guide;
    Accelerated almost immediate manifestation (Higher vibrational state);
    Augmented psychic abilities;
    Blissful feelings;
    Augmented sense of empathy. Feeling other people’s feelings;
    Widened perspective;
    Meeting divinities;


    Nervous symptoms: (Mimic restless legs and Multiple schlerosis)

    Electricity running through the body;
    Tingling, prickling sensations, numbness: Paresthesia;
    Walking with a gait;
    Foggy mind;
    Fatigues
    Periods of depression (They don’t last);
    Blurry vision, many vision disturbances.., It can feel alarming;
    Vertigo.

    Sleep troubles;
    Open Third eye: Seeing beings, hearing things, being visited. It can be frightening at first;
    Traumas coming to surface;

  • Awakening 2: Third eye opening

    Awakening 2: Third eye opening

    In November 2019, two months after my first transcendental experience, I met my spirit guide.

    The night it happened, I was with my friends. Although I was always the one to have resistance towards recreational drugs, that night I felt the urge to take ecstasy. It came from such a calm place within me, that I had to trust it.

    After a while of taking half the pill, my friends were moving and enjoying themselves. I was in no mood for dancing. I felt the need to sit down and close my eyes. In my mind’s eye, I saw Torus shape made out of thousand of small symbols, so rapidly rotating in and out of it’s center. I wanted to focus on what the symbols were, but they were so fast. I only remember pyramids, the all seeing eye and the markaba.

    Then, of its own will, my body goes into something like a yoga posture, although I had never practiced it before.
    Without any warning, my soul gets projected out of my body.

    I am on top of a mountain and around me was some sort of tribe, chanting. I get mesmerized by the sound and enjoy it for a while, until I feel a presence.

    I could sense it before my eyes could see it. My hands stretched in front of me and my mouth just uttered those words: “What are you”? “My god… those eyes…”
    The second those words left my mouth, I could see it.

    Eyes that were shaped like a horizontal big drop of water, with the night sky as a filling. And I do not meant ‘the color blue’. No the night sky, with all its colors and stars and living systems. It was as if the eyes were transparent and transposed on the night sky background.
    Around them was some sort of shimmering white fur with a black strap resembling that of a white tiger or a white owl. The ears were long and extended, such as those of a lynx.

    There was fur covering the top of the head and the chin. It had big wings. My eyes could see this creature perfectly, but every side of it would come and go as I moved my head. Somehow, like the effect of lentcal printing. Because of this effect, it looked as if it had many sides.

    I ask it again, “What are you?”
    The beautiful creature answers in my head, in a sort of telepathic communication
    ‘I am a being of light and so are you’

    I got distracted by how good it felt to run my hand in its fur… I was petting it and I invited it to come closer to me. It felt so familiar when it laid on my chest.

    ‘What is your name’

    ‘Izmyr’

    ‘That is the name of a Turkish city’

    ‘It is also my name.’

    The nature of the interaction was light and humorous. It felt as if I was talking to an old friend or loved one. I didn’t want to let go of the hug. It felt like I was hugging home.

    ‘There is a lot I have to tell and show you’
    ‘Show me?’
    ‘Do you want to see where we come from?’
    ‘Yes’
    ‘Look into my eyes’

    Its eyes slowly shifted from the starry blue color to a mix of yellow, blue and red. They still kept the millions of stars in them.

    ‘Get on my back’

    While my physical body remained seated on that bed, I got on its back and it took me to a realm beyond description.