In November 2019, two months after my first transcendental experience, I met my spirit guide.
The night it happened, I was with my friends. Although I was always the one to have resistance towards recreational drugs, that night I felt the urge to take ecstasy. It came from such a calm place within me, that I had to trust it.
After a while of taking half the pill, my friends were moving and enjoying themselves. I was in no mood for dancing. I felt the need to sit down and close my eyes. In my mind’s eye, I saw Torus shape made out of thousand of small symbols, so rapidly rotating in and out of it’s center. I wanted to focus on what the symbols were, but they were so fast. I only remember pyramids, the all seeing eye and the markaba.
Then, of its own will, my body goes into something like a yoga posture, although I had never practiced it before.
Without any warning, my soul gets projected out of my body.
I am on top of a mountain and around me was some sort of tribe, chanting. I get mesmerized by the sound and enjoy it for a while, until I feel a presence.
I could sense it before my eyes could see it. My hands stretched in front of me and my mouth just uttered those words: “What are you”? “My god… those eyes…”
The second those words left my mouth, I could see it.
Eyes that were shaped like a horizontal big drop of water, with the night sky as a filling. And I do not meant ‘the color blue’. No the night sky, with all its colors and stars and living systems. It was as if the eyes were transparent and transposed on the night sky background.
Around them was some sort of shimmering white fur with a black strap resembling that of a white tiger or a white owl. The ears were long and extended, such as those of a lynx.
There was fur covering the top of the head and the chin. It had big wings. My eyes could see this creature perfectly, but every side of it would come and go as I moved my head. Somehow, like the effect of lentcal printing. Because of this effect, it looked as if it had many sides.
I ask it again, “What are you?”
The beautiful creature answers in my head, in a sort of telepathic communication
‘I am a being of light and so are you’
I got distracted by how good it felt to run my hand in its fur… I was petting it and I invited it to come closer to me. It felt so familiar when it laid on my chest.
‘What is your name’
‘Izmyr’
‘That is the name of a Turkish city’
‘It is also my name.’
The nature of the interaction was light and humorous. It felt as if I was talking to an old friend or loved one. I didn’t want to let go of the hug. It felt like I was hugging home.
‘There is a lot I have to tell and show you’
‘Show me?’
‘Do you want to see where we come from?’
‘Yes’
‘Look into my eyes’
Its eyes slowly shifted from the starry blue color to a mix of yellow, blue and red. They still kept the millions of stars in them.
‘Get on my back’
While my physical body remained seated on that bed, I got on its back and it took me to a realm beyond description.